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How did you come to meditation?
I have always been fascinated by the mind. I have struggled with varying levels of anxiety throughout my life, and became curious about how to alleviate my symptoms. In college, when my anxiety was at its peak, I took a class called ‘Intro to Meditation,’ but I couldn’t quite get into it, which felt discouraging. When I moved to Austin, I tried out multiple Sanghas (communities), following various traditions, but nothing ever really fit. It wasn’t until I met Kelly and began meditating with her that I really began to grasp the benefits of the practice. It was more human, accessible and allowing than any other experience I had previously and finally I feel committed.
What inspires you to meditate?
The busy quality of life, uncertainty, impermanence, and ultimately the undeniable suffering that accompanies being human. Meditation gives me more space to deal with the external world, as messy and chaotic as it can sometimes feel.
What does your meditation practice look like?
It is not daily, and often times it is not done in a formal seated position. However, when I do sit, I usually do so for 20 minutes. I usually focus on some facet of self-compassion. I find that I am meditating all the time. In traffic, when I am on the phone with my sister, when I’m practicing yoga with my eyes closed and when I am practicing presence in all things that I engage in.
Do you have any rituals or routines that support your practice?
Movement first, then meditation. I find that moving my body before coming into stillness is key to dropping in. I also clean the floor and my space before sitting so that I can eliminate distraction, and lastly, if I meditate with others, it holds me accountable to practice.
How is your life different because of meditation?
I am far less impulsive. I feel like I have more space to decide things as opposed to just reacting to my first instinct. Generally, my life feels more grounded and less chaotic than it did before this practice came into my life…and it has also facilitated other healthy changes to support my body. I eat better, sleep more and give myself permission to just be me far more easily than in the past.
What are the biggest challenges you have encountered in your practice?
Prioritizing sitting. I am naturally a doer and can get distracted easily. I am challenged to find a rhythm with my meditation practice that allows it to feel spacious enough to invite me in, as opposed to a rigid appointment time which I have a tendency to rebel against. So mostly, it is distraction and forgetting to prioritize.
What advice would you share with someone who is just starting a meditation practice?
Get a good cushion! Support your feet with a blanket. For the first several years of practice, my back hurt terribly simply because I was sitting in an incorrect, non-supported posture. Now that I know how to sit, it is far easier to maintain stillness.
What does your heart most long for?
Pure, present, focused acceptance. To step into a place of self-love that is non-judgmental, non-conditional and rooted in the now.
Brooke is the founder of Open Circle Healing, where she offers sessions that include guided meditation, restorative yoga, and therapeutic massage.